Tuesday, July 13, 2010


for the past couple of nights I've been watching the show "Intervention" on A&E online. There are so many sad and tragic stores being told on this show! I begin to wonder if there is an "intervention" for folks in my situation. I am not taking drugs, drinking to excess, addicted to shopping or plastic surgery, or any other such things. But I DO believe I have an unhealthy relationship with food and exercise. Scratch that, I don't really have a relationship with exercise at all. At best, its on again - off again. The frightening thing is that I have researched more than a lot of people I know. I have read all the tips/tricks of the weight loss trade. I can give other people the answers to their own success. However, I have not put them into motion in my own life, not consistently at least.

So I sit here late at night on and wonder if tonight will be the night that I make that change in my life. I have heard over and over that with anything you have to WANT to change to do so. I have WANTED to change for YEARS, more than 13 years to be exact. I had the will power to continue through in school (college) and get my associates degree. I need to take care of myself and my own health. I can not be the best mother, wife, woman, friend, etc I am capable of being without first taking the best care of myself, no excuses!

I LOVE when people comment here and I feel, physically in every inch of my being, the support that I receive from those words.

I am trying to accept myself more these days. This is not to say that I do not need change in my life in regards to my lifestyle as it relates to food and exercise. But I'm trying to see that there are great things in me at EVERY weight!! I have stopped coloring my hair. I DO have some gray hairs, and I've decided to embrace them. I earned each and every one of them. They are evidence of my 35+ years of life and the good, bad, and truly awesome times I have experienced along the way.

Thank you friends for your words of encouragement! Through your words, the help of my family, friends, myself, and God I WILL accomplish ALL my goals!!


Anonymous said...

I've been reading your blog off & on for probably a year now & honey, you're saying exactly what I think. I KNOW you can & will not just lose the weight but get rid of it. (losing something implies that you want it back)

When I read about your winning & struggling I see myself. Thank you for sharing what I'm too shy to do myself.

Kim Jensen said...

Aw, Dorsey, I really don't have any advice on how to move forward from "wanting" to "attaining", since I struggle with that myself. I know you can and will figure out a way to make it all work though. :)

I'm glad to see acceptance is a priority for you. Honestly, you are one of the most "alive" people I have ever met. You are kind, witty, and intelligent, and have such a terrific passion for life. I can't remember ever enjoying myself more than on some of the times we've gotten together. Scale be damned! :)

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