Tuesday, September 29, 2009


A little over a week ago my husband came home with groceries. This is really nothing of note, as he usually is the one who buys the groceries. He came into the bedroom with a package of Lean Pockets. He stated that he got them for me to have for lunches, but he had one request. He asked that any time I wanted one, I eat just one and then wait a while. If after waiting a reasonable amount of time I was still hungry, then and only then have the other one in the package. I somewhat understood this, as I've been known to eat both of them out of the package in once sitting without blinking an eye. He's trying to help me in this attempt to regain my figure of past. And I have to say I prefer him going about it in this way rather than nagging or complaining.

I have had minimal successes in the past couple of weeks, which is better than none, I guess. I am battling horrid seasonal allergies and migraine headaches. Both of which make it difficult to maintain a normal routine. Most of my days consist of waking up, taking some allergy meds, doing some studying, taking a nap, more studying, shuttling the kids where they need to be, some mindless playing, then off to bed again.

The naps and my heightened importance of studying make any sort of exercise regimen hard to enact. If I forgo the allergy meds, then I develop the headaches and find concentration WAY hard to maintain. But the only way I seem to be able to stay awake all day is NOT to take the allergy medication. Sucky catch-22!!

So I guess all things considered, my small victories aren't so bad. And the sooner I finish my medical transcription coarse then the sooner I can start working and have one less stress to weigh on my already too heavy self.

Thanks for allowing me some venting.

Monday, September 28, 2009

Another day, another pound?

A I go through my daily routine in the fall, I try to motivate myself to include exercise in the motions of the day. I have fallen hort of this here of late. I am still FAR TOO overweight for my liking, and not losing anything much to write home about.

But I DO have support! I have friends and family who support me daily, I have a husband willing to do whatever I need to get me motivated and keep me there!! I should be having greater successes. But I think I'm jhust taking it all for granted. This week that is changing!!

I'm starting another 30-day challenge on the Wii EA Active. I'll let you know what all it requires me to do and if I'm having any great troubles or celebrations to speak of.

Thanks to all for hanging in there with me!

Tuesday, September 8, 2009

Wake-up call

A few weeks ago I took my daughter to get shots and an athletic physical. During the coarse of all this they took her height and weight. My twelve year old daughter is five foot eight inches tall and weighs 145 pounds. She looks fantastic!! She's much more muscular than I was at her age, and even older. I was always more "lanky" when I was younger. But what struck me about this is that my daughter now weighs the same as I did when I met my husband, over fifteen years ago. I am currently more than 110 pounds heavier than that, and I have been for the better part of this last year. That is a hard thing to admit. And not a hard thing to admit to others, but mostly to myself. I have truly "let myself go" and not done much of anything about it.

I am in NEED of a wake-up call!! I HAVE to stop eating the wrong foods! I HAVE to make myself exercise! I HAVE to re-take control of my life!

I have started, as stated before, a medical transcription program. I am a third of the way through it, and one month in. At this rate I'm hoping to be done in 2 - 2 1/2 more months and get working!! This is a BIG step towards conquering my own life. But my health is also in need of rescuing. Sadly, I know only I can take on this mission. As much as I know my husband would help in ANY way I asked him to, he cannot "fix" this situation. Don't get me wrong, having his help will be an insurmountable positive influence.

I am grateful to all of you for your continued support. I hope in two year, when I plan on going on a cruise with my family, to be 100lbs thinner.

My children are making me smile daily! My son is in AFJROTC at the high school and loving it! He's planning to ask a girl to Homecoming this week. I pray she says yes, as I SO want him to experience the elation of having his feelings returned by a girl he likes. He's really come into his own with regards to his confidence. He also chosen this year to go to a lock-in at the church in lieu of going hunting opening weekend. This was taking place at a church that we just recently started attending regularly. He didn't know a lot of people there and had only been around some of them twice before (Sunday school the week before, and confirmation classes on day that week). I was elated!! And when he carried the cross to the front of the church before the service dressed in his ROTC uniform, I'm not ashamed to say I got a little teary-eyed. My son is 14 years old, and becoming quite the man.

My daughter, who I mentioned at the start of this posting, is doing equally well. She is doing phenomenally in school! I think she just might be getting that cell phone at the end of this six-weeks. She hasn't picked her extra-curricular specialty yet, but she's mulling over several of them. She has become interested in the opposite sex. YIKES! She's not allowed to "date" yet, but she's definitely intrigued by boys. She met a boy at the lock-in that is 16. Ugh! WAY too old for her! For the time being we've set a limit of 1-2 years older than her. And yes, although my dear hubby is more than four years older than myself, at her age (TWELVE) two years is about the most. The reason for this is maturity. I am aware that girls mature faster than boys, but one thing is that girls who date boys much older than them find themselves advancing to the older boys' sexual maturity level. And seeing as how I DON'T want her being sexually active in JUNIOR HIGH for sure, I'm instilled this restriction. So sorry, 16 yr old Adam, but she will NOT be your "girlfriend" for some time.

Well, I need to get back to my studies so I can get to bed at a reasonable hour and get up in the morning and make a healthy breakfast then hit the workout first thing.

Take care friends and thanks for always being there.

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